Unwritten Quotes

Aslinya, gue itu bukan “sosmed person”. Gue salut sama temen-temen yang aktif posting di IG. Gue, kalo kumpul-kumpul sama sohib, enjoying some quality time, baru inget foto pas acaranya udah bubar dan on the way home. Tepok jidat dah. But anyway, sejak mesti ngawal medsos nya ‘anak asuh’ gue si @dwaniparama, mau ngga mau kudu belajar aktif di IG. Awalnya jujur aja puyeng karena TMI (Too Much Information). Apalagi gue ini orang yang fokus, jadi kalo ngerjain apa-apa, meskipun mungkin bisa dengan kecepatan tinggi (karena udah biasa), harus one thing at a time. And all of a sudden there was I, scrolling the platform endlessly, until I came to a point where I felt intoxicated.

When being overwhelmed with something, I tend to overthink. Nah kalo penyakit lama gue yang satu ini kumat, udah deh… better off dulu. Jadi gue mundur, tarik napas, and move on with my life. Back to things I’m used to doing. Back to the routines that I master, yang sebetulnya udah bikin gue bosen, meskipun ada masa ketika rutinitas itu juga sesuatu yang baru, dan pernah bikin gw, juga overwhelmed. Isn’t it an interesting pattern? How we develop.

So, aware of this pattern, after a short break, gue balik lagi ke ‘medan perang’. Rupanya kemarin musuhnya belum keluar semua. Jadi ketemu deh sama musuh baru. Mabok lagi. Mundur lagi. Yo wes, ndak apa-apa, namanya juga lagi belajar kan. I can quit of course. But I can always try, and try, and try. At least I’ve tried, gitu kan? Daripada nyoba aja engga. Daripada terus-terusan bersahabat sama comfort zone yang lama-lama jadi silent killer.

Yak! Betul sekali gengs! Belajar sesuatu yang baru itu rupanya ngga se-asik yang gue pikir. Karena awalnya kita harus rela duduk di level ‘beginner’ atau istilah lainnya kalo di game: ‘noob’. Cupu gengs. Buat orang yang udah bangkotan kayak gue, ini super ngga nyaman. Di bidang yang udah gue kuasain sekarang, gue itu termasuk senior dan berpengalaman. Tau-tau sekarang turun derajat jadi anak magang. Dijamin, rasanya nano-nano. Manis, asem, asinnnn.

But the good news is, if you have the guts just to go out of your comfort zone, I think you already have enough courage and wisdom to face all the new challenges that come in your way. No promise of success, simply because success depends heavily on one’s life philosophy, which makes it a subjective matter.

Jadilah gue inget sama beberapa orang yang kebetulan pernah bersinggungan jalan sama jalan hidup gue. They may not know me, but they have inspired me one way or another.

Dari Pak Josef Bataona: “Be yourself, but better everyday.” Ini bener banget, because you’re not required to be someone that you’re not. Every potential you have is there within you. It’s just a matter of when, and how you will finally put them into performance. How you learn from every challenge each day.

Dari Ibu Vera Eve Lim in one of our division’s routine sharing sessions: “If you come to the office at 8, do your usual things and go home at 5 without doing, or thinking about new possibilities, 10 years from now, you go nowhere.” This, Bu, really was a slap on the face for me. But turns out, it has helped me break my fears of trying new things. This quote isn’t written anywhere in any books, but it is written in my heart.